BELOVED
Freedom feels foreign and fleeting …
I’m lost at sea now my cage door is flung free
I am terrified
And there’s this voice in my head calling me Beloved
Every word of His soothes
And rings true
“Put your faith in me
Rise Beloved
No more chains
Let me set you free
You are weary and burdened and battered and bruised
I will comfort you
I will cover your scars
I will cast out your sins if you let my love in”
I stopped Him there
“Love is pain
Love is selfish and cruel and condemned me to chains
I see truth in you
But this promise of love is a prison cell sentence I’ve already seen come true!”
I shut down
Slammed the walls of my cage back around again
The open sea suddenly suffocating
With all that I’d done
And all that I’d seen
The only way to escape was by sinking
But the cracks of my heart could not keep him out
I couldn’t unhear his Beloved shout
But my whole life I was trash
A filthy cowering rash
And love was something I had learned to live without
Then I heard his heart hurt as he wept with me
Spread His arms open wide
Saw my chains at his side
He filled in for me
He wiped a tear from my eye as I shook and asked why
He smiled
Tender and true
Said
“My love is for free and my love is for you
I rejoice in truth
And I desire you
I won’t boast or brag
I’ll give all that I have
I offer rescue
My love is not evil or angry or proud
It is patient and perfect
Unyielding with time
I will honor you
Say you’ll be mine”
I felt power behind His promise
A small tiny flame had sparked in his name
But I was suddenly surrounded by an overwhelming shame
This declaration was deemed undeserving
The crimes I’d committed
The wrongs and the sin
Stained my flesh like a pattern of boils
And bruised I recoiled
Frightened His light would not warm it would burn
Searing these sins steadfastly
He held fast to me
An anchor in panic
A breeze to my wings
He called out to me
“Beloved
You don’t need to be perfect
You just need to be loved
I’ve loved you a thousand lifetimes past and I’ll love you eternity more
You are already loved from my heart to yours
It’s your choice to open the door”
I walked through the valley of the shadow of death
And evil I saw
But I will fear it no more
This darkness is dust
For I have felt the warmth of the Son
He covers my wounds like a salve
A salvation from every awful evil awaiting
I’m now bathed in His light
He is shining
And I?
I am Beloved
I am His Bride
I am pure in His sight
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